BAUK'S BOOKS

This morning they are not me. I am not my parents, my friends, or my spouse. They are elsewhere, and I do not need to be who they expect...

To my mom, and my grandmother, and those who came before. Don't discipline me. Don't make me small. Don't make me into something you...

I am doing the thing today, even though it is hard. I am making art. I am pushing forward. I am trying to make some money and make some...

Part of this magic of connection is being able to see the magic people around us. They are not who you think they are. I am lucky enough...

I was raised to move fast. Focus on the goal. Get things done. Rely only on yourself. Keep distance between yourself and strangers. The...

Is my mind manufacturing things to worry about because it is used to worrying? And if it can't come up with something to worry about, is...

They feel real. Usually unpleasant. But they have no meaning. Why did my mom not teach me that these feelings that sweep through my body...

What if when you figure out the meaning of life, you die? If you can imagine grandiose bad things, why can't you imagine grandiose good...

Last night I had a dream (I know, we never talk about dreams because other people aren't interested in them) in which I was at a school,...

I am a story I tell myself. I am a collection of memories and experiences. I am a council, comprising my values and beliefs. I have a...

To be able to say "this was uncomfortable, but it doesn't mean anything" is a life skill. Sometimes you will feel uncomfortable in a...

After a day of worship (pilates, massage, cheese, walk, rain, nap, rest, hugs, bath) the goddesses appeared to me. Inana, Persephone,...

I'm at the farm. The tall grass and towering pecans spread behind the house, all the way to the pond. There are woods on one side, a barn...

I am posting this on my secret journal because my mom can never know this. Sometimes I believe that endometriosis--as awful as it is--is...

When viewed as beneficial, viruses don't seem as sinister, do they? They don't have intent to kill, or even injure or maim. They are, in...

I try to keep them in sometimes. I don't know if they're good or if they will be laughed at. But the ideas want to come out. I need to...

I went to face a dragon today. It is not a real dragon. It is a metaphorical dragon. But you will not be familiar with the battle, so for...

Letter to therapist: We need to talk about my sister. The cool girl I met in class. My first friend in a long time. We are exactly alike,...

And so after that you felt fear. You knew about impermanence. You knew that a moment of happiness could be lost. You became afraid to...

The quickest way to make me angry is to not acknowledge me. I hate feeling invisible. So why have I spent my entire life trying to fade...