May 24 Daily Entry--Endometriosis Minus

I am posting this on my secret journal because my mom can never know this.

Sometimes I believe that endometriosis--as awful as it is--is my body's way of keeping me from having kids. I think it knows that I don't really want kids. I don't want that demand on my time and energy. I don't have the emotional resources to do that life. And I'm afraid to admit that, because a lot of people seem to think it's wrong or unnatural for me to not want kids. It's as if it is my job to have kids for other people's enjoyment.

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